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This is a personal bog! Posts will be listed in order from most recent to least recent. Each will include the date & general type of bog post (listed below). Reader! Beware! I can talk about anything here! I don't know what this might mean but I'm an adult who might some day be posting smut on here. And you can go look at my ao3 account. I'm just a silly goose but I say fuck and think about John Morfin from The Terror (2018) doing all sorts of lewd things. Also I could talk about my past which is just baggage.

bog update- what it says on the tin, eh

cig thought- ramble type blog that can get personal

soda stories- bogging about my experiments with carbonated beverages

[cig thought] a brief ramble - Sept. 3, 2026

There's a storm headed this way. I'm trying to get back to so much, but August made it feel really hard to be a person. EVEN THOUGH. At the same time. So many beautiful things happened to me in August. I'm in a relationship. One that. Is not a queer platonic thing. Even though he is my best friend too. Someday I should try to speak publicly on my experience, I don't know. Being ace/aro is so funny. I'm glad to be alive and I do wish things felt easier. But one must put in hard work to have a good life and I need to work harder.

I want to add more to my all reviews on all bands I've ever listened to project, update my queer media blog to reflect my rewatch of Edge of Seventeen, I need to finish my youchewube video too, BUT at least I finished writing vampire Morfin fic. You know I realize the people of this bog will have no idea I'm obsessed with John Morfin from AMC's The Terror as played by Anthony Flanagan. Well, upon thinking about it a little longer, you actually do see him a lot on this bog. He's right there on the main page. With Davechella.

I started my radio show, well "radio show" I'm just making playlists as always. I want to be consistent with more stuff. Get back to things. I want to do a bunch of music review things- haul from a record store my friend took me too, fuck even do finally my write up on my concert vacation. The cat who's next to this post is my own.

[soda stories / coffee chat] Sparkling Sour Cherry Lemonade / Rosemary Latte (Aug. 17, 2026)

Had a really yum never before had latte from Pigeon Bagels in Pittsburgh. ROSEMARY LATTE! Very very good. I like it more then I've ever liked most lattes. I think it's up there as a rival to my favorite latte, the turtle mocha from that place that doesn't exist anymore RIP Coopertown. You know I gotta have a cold drink to chase down a hot bev, and what better then a sparkling lemonade! Absolutely lovely, divine even. I wish I could go to this place every day to have these drinks, but it's better for my wallet I can't.

[cig thought] concert preamble, discussion on future. #latenightthoughts - Aug. 23, 2026

I need to get back to updating this bog! I want to do a whole big write up about my week, it was very wild. John Darnielle of The Mountain Goats fame held my hand for an extended period of time during the last song of the show's set in my flurry of 3 concerts. No Children has taken on a whole new meaning. But also both TMG shows I went to were so fucking incredible. And MCR. Sigh. I'll have to write a whole review about it. I need to get my head in the game again. Be more serious about both my free time projects I'm trying to turn into my "job" and then also doing my "job" and also trying to do "freelance". I have to start living my life. I am living my life but I need to keep doing it and doing it more.

Eventually I want to... make a kofi. Idk what I'm making that justifies the kofi but maybe I start posting on youchewube every ... month. Week? month. is more doable. But I also would love to be posting original writing here every week. But there's so much to do all the time. It's such hard work, being a person. Makes me so tired. But it's all worth it. When I do make my kofi though, I am considering pitching it as like "fund my tmg dreams" where I see TMG 15 times at least. Or maybe like, as many times as I can. It's just. I think I should be paid to go to concerts and have a fun time. Twice now in my life I've been complimented on my vibe at a concert. Well me and my companion's vibe. We are a packaged deal. I would love to keep seeing TMG live for as long as I can. Seeing TMG live is truly a magical experience every time. I LOVE THE MOUNTAIN GOATS.

I will hopefully lock in more tomorrow. I have a fic to finish, I want to do some blog posts on here, and god I'd love to finish editing my youchewube video. I need to start working on another one. A book review maybe, I should do my damn The Terror book review actually. Only time will tell. There's so much I want to do and only so much time. Like I haven't even made myself do any original writing in so long. I'll get back on the horse. Really amazing things keep happening to me and if I keep working on myself like I am, things will keep happening. I have wonderful friends and a lot to look forward to.

[cig thought] why so stressed? - Aug. 18, 2026

It's hard work being a person but it gets easier every day. All the stress? As usual, for nothing. It's a lot of stuff happening, but it's okay. I'm figuring it out. And some of the stuff is very fun! John Darnielle and Jon Wurster of The Mountain Goats fame walked past me in line while at the TMG concert last night. John Darnielle brushed very, so slightly past my shoulder. Like a butterfly brushing past me. I noticed Jon Wurster first, which is funny to me. It was an incredible set. And seeing my friend, wow. Friendship is powerful and beautiful. Friendship has given me the richest relationships in my life. If we as a society focused on friendship like we did romance I think there would be more hearts fixed. Tomorrow is MCR, opener Modest Mouse. I will be doing concert reviews I think in my music bog. So on every page of this webbed site everyone will know John Darnielle and Jon Wurster walked past me while I was in line.

I keep working on myself, chipping away at it. I'm so excited to see TMG again. I have to get back to working on the youchewube video I'm close-ish to finishing. I think I'm just going to try to always make one video a month- ideally two and go back to making some terror video edits- but at least a youchewube video i scrounge together or maybe it's one like this. With some to a lot of effort. And I have to write fic. Backpost my friday fic and write this friday's fic AND get my shit together for the big bang. I know I can do it. And it will be good. I'm working with an awesome team. I love my friends so much. And I like knowing all my friends would enjoy each other's company. To put in own review later: August 17th, had a nice rosemary latte and sparkling sour cherry lemonade.

[cig thought] dawn of the final day (gulp) - Aug. 15, 2026

I am worried about tomorrow and the upcoming week for many reasons. I wish I was different. I'm trying to be different. September is going to be a big month for me in terms of doing scary things I keep putting off because well. I have to assume it's the ocd because when I think about why I'm like ~this~ it's because I feel broken and when I feel like that I can probably point somewhere to something. But there's nothing therapy and mediciation and doing the hard work can't fix. It's just sometimes tiresome to think about how much I have to fix. But I want to. I want to live a life with my companions and friends and dear fellows. I want to see if I will meet anymore cool new people. I fear I have wound up in a writing slump due to stress. I'll be backposting a friday fic for my one Terror friday fic series. And god help me with the. Next one. And God help me with the other fic I should have finished. BUT there will be some down time. I just have to keep my head on. If I keep my head on everything is gonna work out. Also my future is so bright.

[bog update / cig thought] bog journal & then omg journal factory exploded - Aug. 14, 2026

Okay, so did another big overhaul sort of here. Most of the backgrounds I think I'll leave for a while now, minus a few I'm thinking of trying to play around with read-abilty. I do like having the fun backgrounds but I don't like creating eyestrain which I'm assuming is what my webbed site is doing. I added my two queer movie reviews from my 2017 blogspot blog to my Queer Media section (garfield in the media logs).

How fascinating to read my old thoughts on Big Eden. And I'm intrigued by rewatching Closet Monster (2015), I wonder how much my thoughts have changed. It's so hard to be a person, to me. Like it would be easy if it weren't for the Everything. I am growing so much, always becoming a different person. But I also feel. I don't know. I am trying so hard to find a path forward and I am doing it but I wish I could make myself be the person I want to be. I am trying.

I wish I could be a different person, but also. If I can find a way to support myself and be less scared and get ERP therapy and medication. I can achieve all the things I'm thinking of, or shoot for the moon so I can still land among the stars. Sometimes I think I should just be allowed to give people a business card but it's just a trauma card. I'm sorry I spent 6-12th grades suicidal / deeply entrenched in suicidal ideatation & I only realized how to start being a person basically at the age of 19/20 instead of whenever people normally become aware they are a person. If I just wasn't going through all that, if I was the way I am now, I would not be in this situation.

But I can only work with what I got and I improve this every day. And will do the hard things to make the world I want a reality. There are so many wonderful people I have met, mostly online, but I want to translate this to the real world & also, all of these friends I'm meeting online are very real to me. I just need to. Get my shit together so I can. Do all the things I want to do.

[bog update / cig thought] Am I being consistent about the wrong things? August 13, 2026

Updated and overhauled the radio resources page in Music Zone. I will get this place looking how I want. Or at least sort of. Some stuff I feel either can't be done or I need to just wait & keep learning. I also updated and overhauled the Boogaloo Radio fanpage. It feels stupid sometime to chase your dreams when your dreams are nothing more then to have fun. Having fun does not pay bills. But how can we live in a world with fuck ass ICE agents, people willing to reveal themselves to be soulless demons? I have to share a gofundme tomorrow. Not here but maybe here. I wish life wasn't so hard, for anyone. The kindest people somehow suffer far too much. But also for my case, the smartest people are also so stupid. I want to update my guestbook and idk. Maybe play with putting it somewhere else but I'm not sure.

[cig thought] Late Night Ramble- Aug. 12, 2026

I am going to shoot for the stars and remind myself I'm a human being. I wish things weren't so hard. For myself and for others. I will be posting a youtube video hopefully by the end of this week. But I need to get going on a lot of writing though (personal and fic) but my mind is elsewhere in so many ways. Some are good, others I wish I'd... be better. I posted one of my poems. I think I will try to write more poetry. I also really want to post original smut. I just don't know what I'm doing but I'm trying to figure it out. I think I will post short stories about a character I made, Mo, an owl guy I like to draw his face. I have two other characters, Hally and Mags, and I want to add some other guys in here. I need to keep shoring it up, it'll get there.

So I can write weird eroctica and cutesy creature critter stories. And poetry. Something that will be posted soon is a rant blog post I have turned into a mid to kind of cooking youchewube video. Time will reveal this. Maybe I'll even trans Fia Killconey's gender and give him a big lighthouse and let him smooch Kip. I love that Fia... hmm. I wonder if she would keep her name the same? He could be in theory like me once where I thought I didn't care about ever changing my name. A man could be named that too. I will mull this. I should go to bed. I have to fix my sleep schedule. I need my sleep and my brain function because I need to quest for I guess micro niche celebrity enough I can maybe eek out a living doing a combo of saying pretty please tip me for my little stories, would you like to buy some ebook smut, and whatever the fuck youchewube may do. If that goes down I guess I will do vimeo and hope. Go back to instantgram. I refuse to go on the clock app. Musicl.ly will never get it's evil claws into me. Sigh. I will remember I'm a real person. I should blog about my quest to watch every queer movie ever made. I've seen 100+ queer films. Revive my love for Vito Russo. I shall go to sleep thinking about this. Goodnight inter web.

[bog update] Friday Update- Aug. 7, 2026

Okay, so I finally posted the ELO album review. I did make a few other posts in my music logs section. There's a lot I want to keep working on but for now, I'm going to put this down and move back to some fun fanfic. I really want to keep posting here and regularly too. Pretty soon I'd like to do a youtube video, it's been a while. But I'm not sure what I should do. I am enjoying this website and working on it. There's a lot of implimentations I want to do around here.

[cig thought / bog update] Getting this place shaped up- 8/5/2026

Once again getting this place fixed up. Right now, for the most part, I think things are in a good spot. Each blog area looks to my liking for now with my current ability to code. I've even done a few of the classic neocity things I see around, such as linking other sites with buttons. I have a site map. I hope to get up my review of ELO's first album, No Answer, and also turn that into a youtube video. I really hope that I can once again capture this feeling of wanting to make things. I just need to make it my own. Nothing may come of any of this anyways, but it will be fun to still share things with people. I do have some pages on this web site to update and fix up (in my site map these are marked as wips) but for today I am going to try to get some writing done. Warm up with some fic but in addition to at least starting my ELO review, I want to start working on some original smut. I have had a lot of fun writing Terror (2018) fanfic. Is it silly to try to enter into this sort of writing? It feels stupid and silly but I really think that's what this world needs now more then ever. Also maybe I'm crazy but I really feel I could garner a strong readership with my silly shit. Be like... I don't even know. I can't think of a niche author but I'd be the niche author of like.... lots of stuff. I'm excited, idk. I just kinda want to give this a shot and see what happens.

[soda stories] Fanta Crimson Sour Cherry- 5/6/2026

Randomly picked this up at the store today. Doesn't taste that bad. Honestly, I fuck with it. Not really all that sour and a very mild cherry taste, but I'd drink this again.

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